Two years ago I was afraid of wanting anything. I figured wanting would lead to trying. And trying would lead to failure. But now I found I cant stop wanting. I wanna fly somewhere first class. I wanna travel without any limits. I wanna learn about the world. I wanna surprise myself. I wanna be important. I wanna be the best person I can be. I wanna define myself so I wont have the others define me. I wanna win and have people be happy for me. I wanna loose and get over it. I wanna not be afraid of the unknown. I wanna grow up to be generous and behearted the way that people have been with me. I want an interesting and surprising life. It's not that I think I'm gonna get all these things, I just want the possibility of getting them. The possibility that things are going to change.